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| Just met a man that encouraged me to wait it out! He's a missionary overseas (yes, Chung...swoon.), he is sweet, he is friendly and outgoing, he could joke around but still tell a very crude friend when he was being out of line...so glad I haven't settled . On a sidenote, this is probably just a reminder for myself months down the rode, with school starting I feel like I have a chance for a new beginning. I wanted 2009 to be the year of Jesus and no boys. Boy...that hasn't gone the way I thought it would. But, I'm tired of chasing after them, I'm tired of longing for a husband, I'm tired of basing my life and the choices I make around "that possibility." Obviously, I'm single for a reason. God has a plan...and He knows what He's doing. I'm going to start living my life and making decisions based on my passions and the desires God plants in my heart-even if it means having to move. I'm not going to be moving anywhere in the next nine months, but I really don't want to pursue anything with a man this year. I'm DEFINITELY cancelling my Match.com subscription (sucked.) and then I think I'm even going to get rid of Eharmony. It isn't doing anything for me and it would be nice to have my $50/month back to put towards something more beneficial. Even if it is a monthly massage!!!! That would have way more benefits for me. I'm not giving up on love and I'm not bitter. I'm just tired. Tired of looking...and tired of trying. I want to focus on the here and now. On all the amazing opportunities I have. I don't want to miss out on creating a fun and exciting environment for my kids! I don't want to miss out on realizing the great outlet I have in which to lead worship! You know what? I honestly prayed to God, and I know we shouldn't put time limits on Him, but if marriage isn't for my future...I really want Him to take all of these desires away. (Hopefully, by the end of this school year.) I want to be content with life! I want to live it to the fullest! But, if marriage is in the works....I pray for blinders until the right time. I'm sick of wasting energy, thoughts, stories, emotions, and my heart on guys that aren't my husband. I don't want to give anything more away that doesn't belong to him--my husband.  <>< | | |
| The alphabet of Kim Neyer! Awesome Beautiful Creative (like none other) Devoted (Mother, Lover, Friend, and Christ Follower) Energetic Fun Gorgeous Hilarious!!!!! Independent Jokster Kim Loving Mother Noble Optimistic Popular:) Queen Rich (Family, house, friends, love, Jesus...) Sexy (LOL! I had to) Truthful Unlike any other! Vivacious Woman Xanga Young (for real and at heart:) ) Zealous Who wouldn't want to be her friend?! | | |
| *hitting pause button on life* Driving around the country in a POS with my 12 string. My hair down, the wind flying through it, ripped jeans, some Chucks, and a sweet music T. Smile:) Life is good. | | |
| Oh yeah. As I was sleeping last night, I needed to turn and get more 'comfortable.' As I was turning, I moved my pillow and felt something under it. In a half daze, I pulled out this GIANT Ghirardelli, intense dark, Evening Dream, candy bar! Wabam! Thanks, mom:) She came over and hid it under my pillow for Easter. LOL! | | |
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