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Note to self

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 16:57:19 GMT

Find your worth in Him. And all else will fall into place

Oh yeah.

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 05:00:25 GMT

Just met a man that encouraged me to wait it out! He's a missionary overseas (yes, Chung...swoon.), he is sweet, he is friendly and outgoing, he could joke around but still tell a very crude friend when he was being out of line...so glad I haven't settled.

On a sidenote, this is probably just a reminder for myself months down the rode, with school starting I feel like I have a chance for a new beginning. I wanted 2009 to be the year of Jesus and no boys. Boy...that hasn't gone the way I thought it would. But, I'm tired of chasing after them, I'm tired of longing for a husband, I'm tired of basing my life and the choices I make around "that possibility." Obviously, I'm single for a reason. God has a plan...and He knows what He's doing. I'm going to start living my life and making decisions based on my passions and the desires God plants in my heart-even if it means having to move. I'm not going to be moving anywhere in the next nine months, but I really don't want to pursue anything with a man this year. I'm DEFINITELY cancelling my Match.com subscription (sucked.) and then I think I'm even going to get rid of Eharmony. It isn't doing anything for me and it would be nice to have my $50/month back to put towards something more beneficial. Even if it is a monthly massage!!!! That would have way more benefits for me. I'm not giving up on love and I'm not bitter. I'm just tired. Tired of looking...and tired of trying. I want to focus on the here and now. On all the amazing opportunities I have. I don't want to miss out on creating a fun and exciting environment for my kids! I don't want to miss out on realizing the great outlet I have in which to lead worship! You know what? I honestly prayed to God, and I know we shouldn't put time limits on Him, but if marriage isn't for my future...I really want Him to take all of these desires away. (Hopefully, by the end of this school year.) I want to be content with life! I want to live it to the fullest!

But, if marriage is in the works....I pray for blinders until the right time. I'm sick of wasting energy, thoughts, stories, emotions, and my heart on guys that aren't my husband. I don't want to give anything more away that doesn't belong to him--my husband. <><

Bragging!

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 18:07:49 GMT

The alphabet of Kim Neyer!

Awesome

Beautiful

Creative (like none other)

Devoted (Mother, Lover, Friend, and Christ Follower)

Energetic

Fun

Gorgeous

Hilarious!!!!!

Independent

Jokster

Kim

Loving

Mother

Noble

Optimistic

Popular:)

Queen

Rich (Family, house, friends, love, Jesus...)

Sexy (LOL! I had to)

Truthful

Unlike any other!

Vivacious

Woman

Xanga

Young (for real and at heart:) )

Zealous

Who wouldn't want to be her friend?!

Pause.

Wed, 27 May 2009 01:17:51 GMT

*hitting pause button on life*

Driving around the country in a POS with my 12 string. My hair down, the wind flying through it, ripped jeans, some Chucks, and a sweet music T. Smile:) Life is good.

Wabam!

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 00:37:16 GMT

Oh yeah. As I was sleeping last night, I needed to turn and get more 'comfortable.' As I was turning, I moved my pillow and felt something under it. In a half daze, I pulled out this GIANT Ghirardelli, intense dark, Evening Dream, candy bar! Wabam! Thanks, mom:) She came over and hid it under my pillow for Easter. LOL!

Swing Vote

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 01:30:34 GMT

I would recommend watching Swing Vote. I actually really liked it.

Life is interesting

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 19:44:44 GMT

Life is interesting. lol.

Appears I will be doing a lot more music coming up. (Which, I can't lie. I love getting to help out with worship)

I'm currently reading this book called Purity: The New Moral Revolution by Kris Vollotton. It is so good!!! Here is a short excerpt that just hit me and grabbed my attention:

" You see, true love germinates in the soil of sacrafice, sprouts in the garden of surrender, and matures in a matrimony of servanthood. Love isn't love until it has cost you something to give it away."

Who knew a book about purity could be so captivating:)

There's other interesting stuff in life, but I just don't feel like blogging about it. lol.

Baby it's cold outside...

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 02:26:14 GMT

It's cold out.

Being a teacher

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 15:12:41 GMT

I don't think I ever understood what I was truly getting myself into when I signed up to be a teacher. All I knew, was that I wanted to live my life in a way in which I could help others. There is NOTHING in college that can prepare you for what you may face in your actual classroom. Student teaching is the best thing you can get to the real thing, but let's not lie--it still isn't the real thing.

These past two years have been tough. Oh so very tough. Whether it's just the extreme workload, student behavior, student participation, PDP, or complaints from parents. Sometimes you just sit back and go..is this worth it? Am I even making a difference? In a world where it seems so much easier to complain than compliment, you rarely hear "Good job! Keep it up!" Which can leave us wondering are we doing a good job?

As I was doing my "F" contacts yesterday, I received an email back from a parent. It was so encouraging. They were so thankful for the change they had seen in their son. So thankful that I had actually been concerned about him. Of course I can't elaborate because of confidentiality, but I didn't realize how much it could make me cry. I didn't even know that we had impacted this one student so much! And then, for the first time in two years, I felt like maybe...maybe I will be a great teacher someday! I have to learn that there will just be some students that don't click with my personality, and not take it so personally. But, I still want to make sure every student knows I care about them! It's more than just caring about their academic success--I want them to know they do have a shot in this world. There is someone who still sees the potential inside of them. I think one guest speaker we had best stirred my soul when he quoted this to us...

Matthew 25: 34"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

37"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'

40"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'

I have no idea what God has in store for the rest of my life...but for today, I am thankful. I have a twinge of humble pride. I am thankful that I was used to impact this one student. And to have that knowledge-is very ...wonderfully...overwhelming. <><

Tenth Avenue North and other thoughts

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 12:20:39 GMT

Sometimes songs come along that just move us. They stir our soul even if we didn't know that it needed to be stirred. This song for some reason just gets to me every time. It's on the radio right now as I'm preparing for another day of work.

"By Your Side"-Tenth Avenue North

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

(Chorus 2x)

Oh I have so much to write. God IS stirring something in my soul. Like it's never been stirred before. It's honestly exciting...and I'm praying through it all. I want to be humble and continue to pray so I know that these desires and passions that have been awakened ten fold are from him. I know what I desperately need...just time to lay and be with Jesus. At night, I love to get into my bed and pray and hope that I slip into a world of dreams where I can be with Jesus. :)

Have a fantastic day<><